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Déjà Vu, has this happened to you?

Okay, so I’m re writing my previous entry, it didn’t get published. It’s about déjà Vu and I’m curious as to what it is, if people really have it, how can one remove it or enhance it.

I know how I sound like, I’ve had numerous occasions of deja Vu since I was a small child, I encountered the word when I watched the movie “The Matrix” (1999) the scene where Neo and his troop were inside the building and as he was about to climb the stairs he saw a black cat pass by the door and then saw it again when he looked back at the door. He uttered “déjà Vu”.


According to: shantitechnology (dot)com

Deja Vu refers to those odd and usually rare moments whem present feels like the past. Its a hard experience to interpret. Some people search their memories for dreams that might have been like the present. Others think that the experience is what happens when things from past lives emerge in this one. Both notions are impossible to prove, disprove, or (until recently), investigate. The belief that its about past lives is a matter of faith. The idea that it has to do with dreams is less a matter of faith – only a few people claim to recall past lives, but almost everybody remembers some of their dreams. Some recall a lot of them. The theory of reincarnation that is most consistent with modern brain science (Algorithmic Reincarnation) predicts that no memories are passed from one life to the next. What is transferred is a set of signals that reflect states of consciousness. Memories don’t need to go along.

Memories are state-specific. We can have experiences in one state of consciousness (like when we are drunk, for example) that we cannot remember at all when we are in another. States of consciousness provide a much more direct way for someone to select how they will behave than remembering past behaviors and comparing them to present possibilities.

There is a fly in the ointment with dreams as well. Both dreams and deja vu experiences happen in non-normal states of consciousness. Most altered states are are a fertile ground for confabulations. This means that in the moment when someone is experiencing deja vu, its easier for them to create a false memory than it would be normally. In fact, during moments of deja vu , one’s consciousness has unusually direct access to long-term memories, and the brain processes that allow us to retrieve them.


I’ve always brushed off these occurrences, I’ve had that feeling and memories of things happening again, more than once in my life. But they were small things, not too important like the lottery numbers or test answers, just some things like a conversation happening in a location I’ve never been to before, eating a meal with a certain mix of people and an event or small conversation happening during a meal. Sometimes I see faceless people/person then the ‘present time’ comes and I already met the person and his face filled in the blank.

Things like that.

It used to be I remember the scene and experience deja Vu as the event happens again and I tell myself ‘I’ve seen this happen before’ then shrug it off. But lately, it happens sooner.

Nothing big.

Like last week I ordered an smoothie blender online for my workout sessions, because the website had a sale last week, just today I remember telling my sister a few week or a month ago that i swear I will never ever order electronic online.

Why? Because I had such a vivid dream more than a month ago that I’d receive a defective electronic product from my online order and wouldn’t get a refund for the product.

But I forgot about the dream until today when this morning I received my smoothie maker and when I used it it wouldn’t turn on! It was a bummer.

In my dream I was having an argument with the people from the company and they were telling me that they can’t refund my money because I signed the ‘return form’ incorrectly. More specifically, in the “reason for return” section, instead of putting the exact date, I placed: I received the product today and returning it today, but I was delayed in sending it and sent it the day after. That was their reason.

The first half of the dream happened earlier, the second half, I’m wishing wouldn’t come true.

So back to déjà Vu, has it happened to you because I’ve had it constantly happening to me since before I was a teenager, involving little incidents with my life…

The electronic item thing was creeping me out so I finally wrote an entry about it.

Have you experience déjà Vu before? How do I remove it or enhance it?

I’ve read articles about it and some said it may be hallucination, for some, maybe.

I don’t smoke, haven’t tried smoking cigarette, I haven’t taken unprescribed drugs in my life, I’m a healthy ladeeeh, and I know this article is so weird but I’d love to hear about your experiences and thoughts.



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Feel good! DIY Face Mask and Coffee Body Exfoliant

The Organic Way

Suddenly feel like pampering yourself and relaxing your way through the day? Most of the time I get the urge to just detoxify whenever I feel sluggish or down, weird enough, sometimes the feeling comes after having a meal. But grabbing another bite of whatever snack is available after having a full meal doesn’t seem right! It feels good, but thinking about it- No.

Then I think about my body and what it really needs, and I get the feeling of wanting to exfoliate in the oddest of moments, usually when I’m at home and got nothing else to do, that’s also the time when I’m too lazy to go to the gym, the pool or anywhere relaxing, so I think to myself I’ll pamper my skin at home! But I find that the facial masks or total body scrubs in stock won’t do it for me.

I did this lately, ‘do it yourself facial mask and body exfoliant’. It’s an all-organic recipe, all the ingredients can easily be found in your kitchen cabinet. But don’t underestimate the power of homemade organic goods, this is extremely rewarding for your body without the added chemicals! Plus, it’s easy!

For the facial mask you will need:

1/2 cup of Papaya (smashed in a small bowl)
1 tbsp Oatmeal with tbsp hot water (optional)
1L boiling hot water (placed in a pot)
Chilled Cucumbers

Papaya Facial Mask


1. Wash you face with your cleanser.
2. Combine the oatmeal and the smashed Papaya.
3. In a quiet room place the hot water on a flat surface
4. Close your eyes and put your face over the steam for 10 minutes. Let the steam hit your face to open up pores. Put on some music if you want.
5. Dab the sweat from your face and slowly apply the papaya mask with your fingers all over your face. Do this while standing up or lying down.
6. Lie down and relax, put the cucumbers over your eyes and relax for 15-20 minutes until the mask dries.
7. Rinse off thoroughly.

*Your skin will feel softer and smoother. Papaya has whitening properties which will brighten your skin, plus it’s organic and healthy so you don’t have to worry about chemicals.

For the Coffee Body Exfoliant you will need:

1/2 cup ground coffee (pulp after brewing can be used too)
2 tbsp olive oil/jojoba oil/any massage oil
2 tbsp sea salt
scented oil (optional)
warm bath water

Moisturizing Coffee Body Scrub/Exfoliator


1. Mix all the ingredients in a small bowl:

2. Start off with a warm shower
3. Using any soap for sensitive skin, clean your body lightly.
4. After rinsing, apply the body scrub onto warm skin. Dark spots. Problem areas. Feet.
5. Using a loofah or any cloth, gently scrub in circular motion. Make sure you take your time massaging your skin.
6. Rinse off. Wash off with soap or bath gel. *careful to not clog your drain.
7. Dry off and Apply your favorite body lotion or body butter!

*This perked up my skin. The coffee rejuvenates and exfoliates while the olive oil moisturizes the skin. I’m avoiding drinking coffee nowadays and I find this a great alternative to my coffee addiction! Research shows that this method can tighten up skin as well. Enjoy!

*Drink a glass or two of water before and after.

Once in a while, it’s fun to try out something different, fun and simple. I just started doing this and if I can, I’ll try to do it every week! Hope this helped you out.


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Posted by on June 6, 2013 in face, health, Spirituality, weekend


Run! Follow what you love.

In life we hear a lot of things such as ‘follow your heart’, ‘do what you love’, ‘Be Happy..’, but what do they really mean? In this era of technology and material things it’s becoming quite hard to walk in a straight line. This era, without a doubt is strikingly different from previous eras because it’s not just about us humans anymore but humans and technology, ‘a defining moment in the history of mankind’ (if you want it dramatically penned). Life revolves around these two things whether we care to admit it or not. Sometimes we follow so many things, trends, events that we neglect to ask ourselves if what we’re doing makes us happy, more importantly if it is who we really are.

Losing track is getting common nowadays and it’s not a question if getting back on track is easy, but what track to get back on.

Bird’s eye-view – Cebu, Philippines

“When in doubt, follow what you love.”

I can’t testify to this yet, but it sounds so right. When I see life and the struggles, hardships and pain that go with it I think to myself, the only thing which makes it worth living is to do it with the thing you love most, i think that’s the time when life will be most beautiful.

So yes, I made the mistake of not doing the things I love whenever I feel down, I leave them out whenever I feel angry, negative and depressed, afraid that negativity will tarnish my child-like adoration and love for my hobbies (yoga, swimming, writing, movies, animation, anime, jogging, baking and cooking). Thinking that if I do them with something negative in mind it wouldn’t be as pure, fun and free anymore.

I found it hard to accept that I can harbor negative emotions. I found it hard to accept that reality can be really dreadful and nightmarish. I don’t want to avoid it by hiding behind things I love (things which made me lively ever since I was young.), that thought only proved that I was narrow-minded and naive.

Knowing about the dreadfulness, I realized that what I should be doing is to ‘share’ the things that I love to ease things up if not erase all things dreadful. It’s not about ‘hiding’, it’s not about me, it’s about bringing it to another level. Everything to a whole new level.

It might be easy to say and write about these things but it would be stellar if we could all follow what we love through and through towards our own happiness. For me? It’ll be hard and complicated, just like anything in life, but I will do it!


14th Dalai Lama

Because of one post from ‘’, i was able to know about ‘Dalai Lama’. As someone who’s done a bit of research about spirituality, tranquility, Taoism, Qui Gong, Yoga and have committed time to these practices, I surely am… humiliated that I have no idea who Dalai Lama is. Sure, I read quotes from him here and there, and I probably read about him back when I was younger but I dont know of him or his contributions. I was more surprised when Rona, my kid sister knew of him, or at least she’s familiar with his title. (It’s even more humiliating that when we were talking about religion and she referred to Buddha using his real name, and I was like: err… wait, I know ‘Siddhartha’ he was a prince right… like Mahabharata or something… and then  she told me, it’s Buddha. okay.)

Dalai Lama is admirable. I am just starting to REALLY explore worlds outside of my own. I dont know if it’s a bit late for that because I’m 24, but he sure gives a whole new meaning to greatness.
I dont want to sound patronizing and idolizing but because I’m ‘originally’ an anime-buff, a cartoon-addict and I’m just starting to outgrow those clothes, I can’t help BUT, BUT relate everything into my world. I can’t help but notice too, that his life story was similar to Avatar the last air bender, and no research is necessary to prove that it is a fact:
The 14th Dalai Lama was hailed as the next Dalai Lama when he was 2 years old, he was found in China through signs and OMENS, after finding him in a specific place, he was presented with things/toys/possessions belonging to the previous Dalai Lamas and some were just random possessions. He chose those belonging not only to the 13th, but all the Dalai Lamas exclaiming ‘Mine mine!’, making him the reincarnation of all the 13.  After that, he was the youngest of all 14 to actually be hailed as a Dalai Lama, not waiting for him to claim the power at adulthood, he didn’t have any choice but to be the leader at age 15.

Seriously, if this isn’t proof that he was the inspiration for Aang in Avatar… plus that his original name had the name: ‘Gyatso’ in it is enough proof. cool.

I have to admit that I thought at first that he was all smiles, warm and engaging… and he is! But he is also really deep, charismatic and a good speaker. Which I didn’t perceive when I saw how ‘holy-like’ people make him to be. I dont know him, and I haven’t read anything from him, but I’ve heard him speak and I like his thoughts, message and… well, gestures. He met powerful people all over the world and Dalai Lama was able to light up, suck everything into his own world. No ego, no pretentiousness, no daunting and overwhelming presence… so calm and tranquil all the while. I hated the media coverage but without it I wouldnt have any way to listen to him and watch see him.
I am thinking of changng religions. From Catholic to Buddhism. My sis said I just have too much idle time on my hands and that’s why im thinking these things but I’ve been interested in religion ever since… the beginning of time… :), ever since I was awkward and clueless, I always had God with me and my thoughts… I doesnt feel like I’m turning my back on him if ever I change religions but then again maybe i’m just justifying my actions??? Because I’m thinking that as a Christian I was raised to believe that God created everything, right? If that’s true then he also created Buddha and the concept of Taoism… or is that a twisted logic?
For one, although I believe and love ‘God Almighty’ with all my being, Christianity didnt pull me in as much as Buddhist teachings and Qui Gong did. I attended church, celebrated Christmas, bonded with family… but I never knew scriptures from the Bible, I can’t recite the 10 commandments, I don’t recall memorizing the trinity or Ama-namin… Whenever I went to church I always felt like fainting and suffocating. Like what I was wearing wasn’t too comfortable. It’s either too hot or too ‘something’. But when I read the bible, I find myself totally immersed in the teachings of Jesus Christ… the way of sharing and giving that is Christianity. But it’s just that i dont see it manifested in my fellow Christians… or in life.
It got me thinking, while I believe the way of the bible, Christianity is doing a poor job in etching it into the being of my fellow Christians. There is doubt and turmoil in the heart. Instead of being enlightened, opening up and surrendering. In Christianity there is a violent tug-of-war between good and evil even though the Bible says to honor and respect everyone and oneself. To be at peace and always pray for thanks and doubts…
I realized that while I always say and believe myself to have an open mind, I am quite self-centered, prejudiced and narrow minded. This interest in religion and getting to know other beliefs better is a new thing for me. Back then I said it, but when actually faced with it I have inhibitions that I try to cover up with enthusiasm. I see people from Jehovah’s witness, Muslims and Buddhists and think automatically that they’re not like me… when in reality maybe my fellow Christians are NOT like me and maybe Buddhists are like me but religion is making me believe otherwise.
I don’t want this to be a hype-thing where I-just-want-to-be-different or just to belong or just because I’m not doing IT/GREAT right now that i have to change my beliefs and religion; or take it as a purely-curious-phase of my life; but more of a life-changing, coming-out chrysalis-phase of my life (where did I get that word?). I want it to be natural.
That is why I’m thinking. I want it. But is it right? I feel calm about it like it is right though. and I want to soak into their customs. 
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Posted by on June 22, 2012 in journal, religion, Spirituality, wisdom


hello world! Mark Twain

“It’s no wonder that truth is stranger than fiction. Fiction has to make sense.”

“Let us live so that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry.”

“When your friends begin to flatter you on how young you look, it’s a sure sign you’re getting old.”

1. Approve of yourself.

“A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval.”

If you don’t approve of yourself, of your behaviour and actions then you’ll probably walk around most of the day with a sort of uncomfortable feeling. If you, on the other hand, approve of yourself then you tend to become relaxed and gain inner freedom to do more of what you really want.

This can, in a related way, be a big obstacle in personal growth. You may have all the right tools to grow in some way but you feel an inner resistance. You can’t get there.

What you may be bumping into there are success barriers. You are putting up barriers in your own mind of what you may or may not deserve. Or barriers that tell you what you are capable of. They might tell you that you aren’t really that kind of person that could this thing that you’re attempting.

Or if you make some headway in the direction you want to go you may start to sabotage for yourself. To keep yourself in a place that is familiar for you.

So you need give yourself approval and allow yourself to be who you want to be. Not look for the approval from others. But from yourself. To dissolve that inner barrier or let go of that self-sabotaging tendency. This is no easy task and it can take time.

2. Your limitations may just be in your mind.

“Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don’t mind, it doesn’t matter.”

So many limitations are mostly in our minds. We may for instance think that people will disapprove because we are too tall, too old or balding. But these things mostly matter when you think they matter. Because you become self-conscious and worried about what people may think.

And people pick up on that and may react in negative ways. Or you may interpret anything they do as a negative reaction because you are so fearful of a bad reaction and so focused inward on yourself.

If you, on the other hand, don’t mind then people tend to not mind that much either. And if you don’t mind then you won’t let that part of yourself become a self-imposed roadblock in your life.

It is, for instance, seldom too late to do what you want to do.

“Humor is mankind’s greatest blessing.”

“Against the assault of laughter nothing can stand.”

Humor and laughter are amazing tools. They can turn any serious situation into something to laugh about. They can lighten the mood just about anywhere.

And a lighter mood is often a better space to work in because now your body and mind isn’t filled to the brim with negative emotions. When you are more light-hearted and relaxed then the solution to a situation is often easier to both come up with and implement. Have a look at Lighten Up! for more on this topic.

4. Let go of anger.

“Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.”

Anger is most of the time pretty pointless. It can cause situations to get out of hand. And from a selfish perspective it often more hurtful for the one being angry then the person s/he’s angry at.

So even if you feel angry at someone for days recognize that you are mostly just hurting yourself. The other person may not even be aware that you are angry at him or her. So either talking to the person and resolving the conflict or letting go of anger as quickly as possible are pretty good tips to make your life more pleasurable.

5. Release yourself from entitlement.

“Don’t go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.”

When you are young your mom and dad may give a lot of things. As you grow older you may have a sort of entitlement. You may feel like the world should just give you what you want or that it owes you something.

This belief can cause a lot of anger and frustration in your life. Because the world may not give you what expect it to. On the other hand, this can be liberating too. You realize that it is up to you to shape your own life and for you to work towards what you want. You are not a kid anymore, waiting for your parents or the world to give you something.

You are in the driver’s seat now. And you can go pretty much wherever you want.

6. If you’re taking a different path, prepare for reactions.

“A person with a new idea is a crank until the idea succeeds.”

I think this has quite a bit of relevance to self-improvement.

If you start to change or do something different than you usually do then people may react in different ways. Some may be happy for you. Some may be indifferent. Some may be puzzled or react in negative and discouraging ways.

Much of these reactions are probably not so much about you but about the person who said it and his/her life. How they feel about themselves is coming through in the words they use and judgements they make.

And that’s OK. I think it’s pretty likely that they won’t react as negatively as you may imagine. Or they will probably at least go back to focusing on their own challenges pretty soon.

So what other people may say and think and letting that hold you back is probably just fantasy and barrier you build in your mind.

You may find that when you finally cross that inner threshold you created then people around you may not shun you or go chasing after you with pitchforks. They might just go: “OK”.

7. Keep your focus steadily on what you want.

“Drag your thoughts away from your troubles… by the ears, by the heels, or any other way you can manage it.”

What you focus your mind on greatly determines how things play out. You can focus on your problems and dwell in suffering and a victim mentality. Or you can focus on the positive in situation, what you can learn from that situation or just focus your mind on something entirely else.

It may be “normal” to dwell on problems and swim around in a sea of negativity. But that is a choice. And a thought habit. You may reflexively start to dwell on problems instead of refocusing your mind on something more useful. But you can also start to build a habit of learning to gain more and more control of where you put your focus.

8. Don’t focus so much on making yourself feel good.

“The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up.”

This may be a bit of a counter-intuitive tip. But as I wrote yesterday, one of the best ways to feel good about yourself is to make someone else feel good or to help them in some way.

This is a great way to look at things to create an upward spiral of positivity and exchange of value between people. You help someone and both of you feel good. The person you helped feels inclined to give you a hand later on since people tend to want to reciprocate. And so the both of you are feeling good and helping each other.

Those positive feelings are contagious to other people and so you may end up making them feel good too. And the help you received from your friend may inspire you to go and help another friend. And so the upward spiral grows and continues.

9. Do what you want to do.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”



If you want to become whole, first let your­self become broken.
If you want to become straight, first let your­self become twisted.
If you want to become full, first let your­self become empty.
If you want to become new, first let your­self become old.
Those whose desires are few gets them, those whose desires are great go astray.
For this reason the Master embraces the Tao, as an example for the world to follow.
Because he isn’t self centered, people can see the light in him.
Because he does not boast of himself, he becomes a shining example.
Because he does not glorify himself, he becomes a person of merit.
Because he wants nothing from the world, the world cannot over­come him.
When the ancient Masters said,
“If you want to become whole, then first let your­self be broken,“
they weren’t using empty words.
All who do this will be made complete.
–Lao Tzu
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Posted by on September 1, 2011 in quotes, Spirituality